I'm glad

Ok, so this is like a continuation from the last post (and yes I have other stuff to talk about, but I don't feel like it right now).

Anyway. I think Jennifer Lopez (or whoever wrote this song) said it best.....

Baby when I think about
The day that we first met (the day that we first met)
Wasn't lookin for what I found
But I found you
And I'm bound to find happiness in being around you

[Chorus:]
I'm glad when I'm makin love to you
I'm glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind every time
I'm glad when you walk you hold my hand
I'm happy that you know how to be a man
I'm glad that you came into my life
I'm so glad

[Verse 2:]
I dig the way that you get down
(you get down for 'bout)
And you still know how to hold me
(and you still know how to hold me)
Perfect blend, masculine (can't get enough now)
I think I'm in love, damn finally

[Chorus:]
I'm glad when I'm makin love to you
I'm glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind every time
I'm glad when you walk you hold my hand
I'm happy that you know how to be a man
I'm glad that you came into my life
I'm so glad

[Bridge:]
I'm glad that you turned out to be
That certain someone special
who makes this life worth living
I'm glad you're here just loving
So say that you won't leave
Cause since the day you came
I've been glad

[Chorus:]
I'm glad when I'm makin love to you
I'm glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind every time
I'm glad when you walk you hold my hand
I'm happy that you know how to be a man
I'm glad that you came into my life
I'm so glad

*sigh*

Well I guess I can't fight it anymore.

I was trying and trying to keep it from happening, but it's too strong.

I'm still holding on tight, but I'm slowly losing my grip.

Part of me wants to just let go and just BE - but another part of me is saying "Nuh uh girl, keep it together! We all we got!"

What will happen if I do, huh?

I remember a fortune cookie saying "You'll never know what you can do unless you try." It's so true.

I mean, if things don't work out as planned, I'll survive - I guess.

I just didn't want to put myself through the fire again.

You can't really live life if you're guarded all the time though.

Maybe it's time to put down my shield, just a little.

A friend told me recently that I'm basically living a lie. She didn't say it quite like that though.

I guess she was right. I don't wanna be a liar anymore.

Ok.

Here we go - I'm letting go.......

How's that song go....Cuidado Con mi corazon - yeah negro, take heed or feel the wrath.

Another Friday

What is it about Friday's that just make you not want to do any work? Is it the anticipation of knowing you don't have to do any work for the next two days once this day is over? Whatever the case may be, I am SO unproductive on Friday's most of the time. I used to be able to start off good, then after about 3:00 I might as well not be here - but now, I can't even get on the good foot at 7:30am! I mean, that's kinda early to be tryna work anyway, but especially on a Friday, a rainy Friday at that. I think we should get rain days just like sick days. If it's raining, stay home in bed. I would LOVE that. I can't wait to start my own company. Nobody else would get rain days, but I would (the perks of being a CEO).

So - here I sit, blogging and listening to Beyonce instead of doing whatever it is I am supposed to be doing right now. Does anybody notice? Proboably not since they're doing the same thing. Oh well. here's to Friday's! oh great - the nosy man I work with just walked by and commented on the cartoon pic - sheesh, don't you have something to do!?

Here we go again

I remember when I was around 19, there was a period in my life where it seemed like everything I could possibly want was coming to me without hesitation. I remember a day when things just seemed TOO perfect and it scared me. I guess I'm always bracing myself for when something goes wrong and drama happens or there's turmoil. Now don't get me wrong, out of 25 years I haven't had many drama filled moments, but I always expect it. When I was in 11th grade I first started to notice that nothing bad has ever really happened in my life and it worried me. I felt like I lived in a protective bubble and nothing could touch me. It left me feeling paranoid because I wondered if something bad DID happen, how would I handle it since I've never had to go through too much in the past?

Now I'm at that point again. I feel like everything is going so great and I'm worried. At any moment everything I have and love can be taken away from me, and I don't want to take anything for granted. How can I show my appreciation for all of my blessings? What can I do to feel like I'm really aware and thankful for all the good things in my life? I don't know, but I'll continue to thank God every night and pray that the blessings continue. I will also try to share my belssings with those around me. That's all i can think of. And even if everything just disappeared one day - I know that I appreciated what I had.